First Check Up

My first check up went really well. I did have to get my port flushed, but it wasn't as bad as when I was on chemo. It still made me feel all sick and woozy, but it wasn't aaass bad and disgusting. Still gross, but semi tolerable! Woo hoo for not being as susceptible to nasty saline! And usually I am ridiculously ticklish, so when the doctors come at me with their fingers to give me a physical exam, I curl up in a ball at the lightest touch. Buuuut I didn't even wriggle up into a ball!! Hooorah! Cancer cured my ticklishness... Probably not, but it getting better.

The doctor said I was doing good and that I have to come back in three months. So all is well!! I am just recovering now! You would think that since I am done that I get to be free and be able to be normal, but I have to work back to being normal and I still have dips of feeling icky. But I am getting there!

Continue in Patience

Heavenly Father sure knows how to help his children. This Mormon Message has really given me courage and understanding. And above all, it helps me demonstrate patience in my little predicament of a situation. I know everything will be okay.

Cancer Sucks. Choose Hope.

Have I ever mentioned how much I dislike Cancer? Well I do. Frankly I don't think anyone enjoys it, so I think that we are all in agreement. Cancer Sucks. The fact that is sucks though was no reason for me to give in to my natural man and give up, so what I chose hope.

I firmly believe that choosing to be hopeful helped me when I was sick. I think that it also helped me in my well being and maturity. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to say "Me, me, me, I'm so great." I'm just trying to convey a little lesson I learned from this experience.

So basically, I think that deciding to be hopeful helped me with my faith and contributed to how I felt from day to day. It is good to recognize that sometimes things "suck" or are not as much fun, but by recognizing it and then pushing through the suckiness can help you feel better.

I think that these button phrases can apply to anything.

__________________ Sucks, Choose Hope.

It might just help you or someone you know. It did with me.

Furrballicious

So here are two current pictures of what I look like now. Well as of 20 minutes ago. It may be longer now because it is a fast growing machine! No longer am I the adorable bald girl you loved and adored. Now I am the adorable furry girl you love and adore even more than you ever thought you could. I have taken to combing it and pulling it back because it is so tangly and is always in my face. That is kind of annoying I must admit. Ha ha.

Get a good look at that full luscious head of hair!! See the soft sparkle and shine? Oh yeah. It is really thick and way dark!! It hasn't shown any signs of being curly, but there it still really early to tell. Doesn't it look good? I have been getting into this habit of twisting little sections between my fingers when I think or when I drive. My uncle told me if I do that then it will become a habit when I have long hair again, so hopefully it won't become a habit. I just like to feel that I have hair again is all.

I hope you enjoyed these pictures as much as I enjoy not being bald. Which is a lot.

Update

Once upon a time I used to be an avid blogger, dedicated to letting the world know about how I was doing with my cancerous life. I formally apologize for the lapse in my bloggage. I assume since you are reading this, that you want to know how I am doing. Well I am doing much better. Not having medicine or radiation in your body sure does make a difference in how you feel. I am slowly recovering from my time as a bald cancerous person.

So here is a little update on my non cancerous life: After finishing my last treatments and being faced with the fact of being free, I found myself feeling like a small little animal left out in the jungle with no one to care for me, frozen and frightened of my future. It truly is a scary thing going from having someone and everyone telling what to do and what not to do, to then not having anyone tell you what to do. Seriously, picture yourself in my position. See? Scary isn't it.

Health wise, I am really weak. Just trying to climb out of being sick and become healthy. I get really tired a lot, and sometimes I have little waves of feeling sick, but it isn't nearly as bad as chemo. (I doubt any sickness I have in the future will be that bad. *knock on wood...) It is really hard to breath sometimes, and I get winded often. But, I am getting better slowly but surely.

For awhile I was a little peeved that my trusted doctors didn't prepare me better for after being sick. But then I realized, it is just their job to get rid of it, not to show me how to live after it. So I am figuring it out for myself. I have started doing the Y-Be-Fit program at BYU, and have gotten a gym pass. Y-Be-Fit is a a program then helps teach you techniques to be more healthy through nutrition and exercise. They motivate, teach, and help you with goals you want to accomplish for optimum health.

So that is where I am at right now. Just trying to become normal. Oh life is still frustrating because I won't know where I am at until my PET scan in December, but I am just trying to be brave and patient, and then I can move on with my life. I have faith that everything will be okay.

Enough of the wa, wa, wa and onto the good stuff. I am going back to school in January!! How great is that?! Of course I am going up while it is Siberian weather, but I am super excited. I even have a 100% in my online science class! Plus I am still working and I just got a second job at the BYU bookstore doing gift wrap, so things are pretty good. Plus! I have been seeing Skyler lots and are you ready for this, I have a thick full head of hair!! Yeah, I am a furry little girl. It is so soft and feels like a little animal. I love it. Skyler and I tried to do a mohawk the other day, but it is still too short to style. But it was still fun. Soon I'll be braiding it and pig tailing away.

So there is my little update. I hope you enjoyed and that you are now currently feeling at peace from finally hearing from me. I shall try my best to be better at it. Have a wonderful day everyone!